New approach

I've been taking a new approach to dealing with the first trimester recently, which seems to be working. Before, I was like "well I'm pregnant at the moment but it very easily might not last". I was like the Schrodingers cat, viewing myself as simultaneously pregnant and not pregnant. I figured whilst I couldn't look to the future, at least I'd be more prepared mentally if something when wrong.

However, in a rare moment on positive thinking (incredibly rare as I'm a natural pessimist) I've just decided to this is all going to go OK, and if something goes wrong, I'll just deal with it if it happens. It's not like I can really prepare for the worst anyway. At least this way, I can actually start relaxing (well, to as much of an extent as a paranoid mind can,) and try and start enjoying this journey.

There's a side effect to this, now in my mind this is for-good and a 'go-er', I just want to tell everyone. But I can't, in case.... aaargh! I can't win!