Oh...

At 7.04, Saturday 25th April 2009, two little pink lines appeared in the window of a cheap plastic stick. Oh. Not quite what I was expecting… but hey, at least it explains the two weeks of nausea…

Still not sure what I think, maybe because it’s still quite a strong chance I could early miscarry, which is quite scary. THe future how ever, much scarier. It’s terrifying thinking how I’m going to get through this with the M.E, working part time and having no money. I’ll probably have to give up my job, as I can’t scooter there pregnant (God it’s weird typing that. Pregnant. Pregnant… nope, still doesn’t feel real!) and it’ll be too exhausting getting all the way from SE London to Kings Cross for 8.30am on public transport, with a chronic illness and morning sickness! The future is bright, the future is scary!

So, why did I do the test? If I’m honest I already knew. Two weeks of nausea, back pain, stomach cramps… the practical me just pushed it down and told me I was paranoid. The romantic me was bloody thrilled mind! Why 7.00 this morning? This momentous decision was dictated by being sick of feeling sick and a volumous cat. I decided to do the test yesterday, to ‘rule out’ the possibilty. Obviously, I like a good lie in, and planned to do just that. Sadly Elsie the cat had other ideas, and started cat-a-wallling for her breakfast at a quarter to seven. So awake I was and needing the loo… and the rest is now history.

Al, bless him, has gone straight back to sleep. I wish I could. I’ve got tow parties tonight and god knows how I’m going to get through a civil partnership party and a night of cheesy clubbing having woken up this early AND not drinking AND being shattered from being pregnant. We have a lot to talk about…

Facts (TMI?):

Date of last period - 30th March 2009

Date of conception - 10th April 2009

Finally, I’m going to track the pregnancy through the BBC Pregnancy calender, based on conception date

BBC Pregnancy Calender:

You’re 5 weeks pregnant
Your baby is due on: 1 Jan 2010

25 Apr 2009 Just found out you’re pregnant? Congratulations! At the moment your baby’s a tiny ‘blastocyst’. It’s embedded into the lining of your uterus and is being nourished by your blood system.

Apt eh? It’s the only day it says that… freaky…

For example, here’s the past few days:

22 Apr 2009 Some women have a very slight bleed at this point, called implantation bleeding, but it’s much lighter than a period, and happens before your period would have arrived. 23 Apr 2009 The embedded blastocyst now starts producing a hormone – chorionic gonadotrophin. This stops you having your period, and shows in your urine. 24 Apr 2009 Try a home pregnancy test – you might be pleasantly surprised!